What a night! A small matter can turn into something big. Things wont be so chaotic if his hp batt didn't died on him.

Actually I didn't notice his hp was off till his mum called me around 10+ asking whether am I with him or not cos she texted and called him but didn't reply. Hmm.. At first I thought he wanted to shut himself from the world. But I pretty much guessed that his hp might be running low. But that doesn't stop me from feeling fine. I thought he wanted to play that chasing game again. Where I be the fool, and he'll be my top prize. So I called his friend who was with him in the afternoon. He also told me he can't get through. And I guessed he told the others.

To be honest, I was really extremely hurt from yesterday. I went home straight and locked myself in my room and cried my hearts out. Those words keep playing in my mind. And truthfully, i had that thinking. But I refrained myself from saying those words. I really did. It was tough man! I already swith off my lights and wanted to cry myself to sleep but I couldn't. I got pretty restless and you know what I did? At 9+ I went out. With who? This guy i knew...... just kidding! Hahaha. I went out with Yati. I just need to go out. So I suggested town. The next thing i knew, we were eating at KFC at Cine. And that was when his mum called. Ikotkan hati, aku pon nak main ikot main the hilangkan diri game. But i didn't msg him till 12+.. Yati was talking all the way but my mind was somewhere else. I just couldn't stop thinking about him. I couldn't even concentrate what the hell she was saying. Hahaha.

Sempat main Left4dead! But it wasnt as fun like how I played with him. :( Sampai nak termuntah ok! First time. And wtf? We were stucked in a room for like 10mins cos we both didn't know how to open the damn door!!! Nbcb. And maybe cos hati tk senang beh game main mcm mabok. Ape lagi. Great combo. After that chill at Starbucks and we went home. My body was there but my mind was at somewhere else. I even brought Yati to the usual carpark(s) where he park his bike. Hoping that he was there. Mane tau kan die nak main game. Nak shoot shoot zombie lepaskn geram.

Oh well. Even though I was badly hurt, i tried playing the water even though what I really wanted to do was punch him in the face. I hate hate hate chasing. I no longer enjoy chasing him around. I had enough of those games last time. Now, what I would try to do is just leave him alone. As for me? I might be angry and very vulgar when we fight but once we cooled down for an hr or so, when he calls i will be ok already. I won't be like ape lah! Nak ape?? I'm not usually like that ar I think. But him? I hate it when i tried to play the peacemaker but he will be like ' ape lah?? Nak ape lagi?? Aku da malas ar.. Apape2 msg ar.' That is why I hate playing nice cos all I will get will be those lines. Nothing much lah but I feel like shit. Aku adelah nak baik2 kan keadaan, kau masi nk tunjuk ego? Wtf. K chill eh.

But after all that drama, well I think we are fine now. Fights are normal. But don't say things that hurt your partners badly like as if there's no more tomorrow. Invisible pain are the one that hurt the most. And don't forget, tongues determine our eternal destination. So, becareful of what you say. You might just regret it. And no, you definitely can't take back your words.

The damage is already done.