DAYAZUL <3.

I wrote the longest letter to him yesterday.
I heard my FIRST full Raya song yesterday at his house. This year, I've been trying to avoid listening to Raya songs cos it makes me feel sad like shit. And it couldnt be worst. The song was ' Duhai Bonda '.
Omg. I'm listening to Sudirman ' Dari jauh ku pohon maaf '. And Im crying. Boyfriend wrote in his letter, he sang that song inside. Baby, Im sorry. I wish I could be there for you but I can't dear... :''(

I love you baby. I miss you badly.

A brief update.

1. Went to watch 'Bruno' on last Saturday with the gang plus some of the band people. Fucking funny movie! I can't stop laughing. But damn explicit shit! Stayed till 6am. Had McD for breakfast. ish2 setan2 gondol nie sume.

2. Went to Ion Orchard for some shoe shopping. After that Geylang Bazaar. Lastly, Mustafa Centre. Balik terus flat.

3. Surprise visit from Aishah, Mat Noh and one of their friends yesterday at work. Aishah called me asking me to go outside the restaurant. And to my surprise, they were there. One of the guy drove. So they waited for me to finish work. Head down to Seletar Damn. About 20 mins, one by one complain they're hungry. So had supper at Sembawang. BAD CHOICE. THE FOOD SUCKS.
Should have gone to Yishun Teh Tarik. Reached home around 4.

So when I thought my situation is the hardest, some people had it even worst. And I thank GOD, my boyfriend is not like that. Yes he has his bad side. But his bad side is only about drugs. I thank GOD is he is not womaniser. I can't imagine if I'm in her shoes. Haiz.. Be strong Babe!

To my one and only love Md Faizrul,

I keep giving you 'luv' at Tagged even though you're not here with me.
I never fails to look at your profile ever single time I logged in to Facebook. Same goes to Tagged.
I still text you ' imiss you' and 'i loveyou' even though I know you wont be able to read.
I still call your hp once in a while even though all I will hear is 'teeet'.

......

I got good news. Boyfriend confirmed will be out next year September. I am so happy, I tell you!!! Time will flies I'm sure.
Meanwhile I know I'm not supposed to do this but I've made a new guy friend. And I feel so guilty? I tell myself, all the reason for my doings is just for fun. Just making use of someone to keep me occupy. Its all temporary. Because I know the person I love most is only him.

I'll be picking up his letter from his sister later. Can't wait to read it..

Sometimes blog-hopping makes me feel so envious when I read about happy couples.
I miss his presence in my life. He's being deeply miss by me. Truly, deeply.

I often read this girl's blog and to me, her boyfriend has those sharp features like my boyfriend. Sharp nose and looks good.

Reading her blog makes me feel so ..... ergh. I don't know. Sad and jealous. Aduhai......

Missing my love so much...

Let's not get sad anymore alright.

I know its too early but i seriously cant wait for NEW MOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I saw the trailer. Just that makes me soooo excited!!! I already read the book. I finished it in just one day ok. That thick book. Can't freaking wait for the movie in November!! Damn. So long.

And in December, can't wait for Zoukout! Gotto make plans so that time will flies.
October, can't wait for the day I can finally start visiting him.
So lets see..

September, my birthday. Falls on Wed. Whatelse?? Titi, if ur reading, make urself free eh!!!!
October, green light to visit my love.
November, New Moon.
December, Zouk Out with friends. Kite siang2 da plan nak pergi. Hopefully jadi la eh.

Saturday pay day. Movies after that. Sunday jln2 di Geylang Bazaar. And shopping for shoes.
Oh well. Atleast I have something to look forward to..

Daya I'm a sucker for LOVE. Not interested in dramas. Deeply in love with her one and only, Mohd Faizrul <3

I know you want me,you know I want you too.

Lovers and Fighters Since 20th July 2007