DAYAZUL <3.

Hey all. Today's my 3rd day of work. Working there is a wholeeeeeee lot of different from TWD. Like seriously. The things you have to do is like so much then TWD. Especially closing. Oh God. The papers that you have to sent for report, to put inside the envelope, to give manager sign. OMG LAH. And the POS system is so much complicated lah! And actually by the 3rd day I'm supposed to be working independently already but I don't think I have the confidence to handle it alone. I'll be working with another girl today. Guest DJ is coming. I bet there's gonna be a bloody long queue later. Wish me all the best people.

I've made some new friends. Not gonna say much. But I don't think I'll be working there for long. No time to meet my darling later. Kalau die keje office hr how? Mati ar. Die balik, aku g keje. Die g keje, aku baru balik da nak tido. CANNOT MAKE IT.

Today's the 28. 3 more days to AUGUST BABY! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

I got a job already. Alhamdullilah. So tomorrow no need to be scared to tell boyfriend that I cabot kerja that time. And it's back to nightlife yaw. I guess nightlife is better for me as I have a very difficult time waking up in the morning. I wished I can continue working in the evening till wee morning when he comes back. Maybe can ask him to join me? Haha. We'll see. Oh, I start tomorrow by the way. Tomorrow as in Monday.

Not gonna tell you where I'm working at but my pay is definitely higher then TWD. For sure. And I hope the HR won't be so fucked up like TWD'S. The HR there is the worst I ever had. Seriously THE WORST! Fuck the HR. And since it's gonna be the fasting month soon, I'll be able to save. I honestly can't wait for fasting month.
And I can't wait to see my baby love tomorrow!! Miss him so much lah. After that, I want to eat my salmon sushi! Been craving for sushi since a few days ago man. Yum2!

Oh did I tell you that random guys came up to me to ask for my number? It happened like last 3 weeks. One guy per week. One was when I was waiting for the bus at my former workplace at Bukit Timah. I was alone sitting when this van stopped beside me. First he asked me where was the nearest petrol. Then second he asked me where I live, where I'm going and do I have a boyfriend or not? Err nampak sah selit daun right. I said yes of cos. Then he still can ask me ' Abeh tk boleh buat kawan ke? And I said 'NO'. He's a matrep btw. What an ass. Trying to use a lame method to pick up chicks ke per.

Second was this apek. Yes apek. More like in his 40s I think. Was sitting at Starbucks with Yati. When I first seated, I already saw him keep looking at me. Wah fucking irritating I tell you. Then Yati went to get the newpaper somewhere. Then this Apek went up to me and he passed me a tissue paper with his name on it. Wait wait I show you.

I was like what the fffffuuuckkkk. I was feeling scared actually. And Yati told me he kept smiling to himself! OMG. And last week we saw him again. With the same clothes but this time sitting at Coffee Bean. Nabei cibai. Some pyschotic asshole.

The last one was at my bustop. I was already late for work and it was drizzling. Waited for cab at my bustop and I was getting really impatient, so I walked further down. Before that I already saw this guy walking towards the bustop. I looked at him and think nothing. Then when I was walking further down, I turn my head back to see if there's any cab coming and to my surprise the guy went out from the bustop and was walking towards me. Mind you it was drizzling quite bad. I stopped and waited for a cab. Then he stopped behind me and said ' Hi. Can I get to know you?'. I was like -______-. What? I said 'err, I already have a boyfriend' and gave him a weak smile. He said 'Oh' and sadly walked back to the bustop. Hahahaha. Fucking funny sia. Confirm paisey eh. Somemore I think he live near me lah since he wait for the bus at that bustop.

Hahaha. Funny experience. I was thinking, makin dekat matair aku nak klua, makin ramai gitu nk kenal2 dgn aku. Hahahaha.

Ok da bye nak tido.

I love reading about people's love life. Through blogs etc. Those happy times with their loved one. Because I know people in love feels really happy and contented when they are with the person they love. And for those sad ones, I feel them. Sometimes it makes me wanna cry reading how painful the journey is. How painful the journey of forgetting the person they once love with all their heart. I bet it's hard. Some took more then a year to forget about their love who never makes it.

I'm lucky that even though the person I love is not with me, I know he will be back in my arms one day. And the day is coming real soon. But what about those who broke up and never getting back? Even though deep in their heart, they still love each other. Or maybe just one of them are still deeply inlove? How sad right? Being together for almost more then 5 years. I can't imagine if it was me. I ever shed tears reading those sad love story. It just so sad. Cos I always imagine that the person is me.

Now what about those whose partner died of accidents and stuff? Ya Allah. That would be so much worse. You won't be able to see them ever again. No matter how much you cry. Oh God. Did you read about the story where the husband fall from the Hotel room on their wedding night? That is probably the saddest story I ever read. I can't imagine what the wife went through. If it was me, I think I'll probably will try to kill myself too. Omg. Selisih.

Ya Allah, please keep me away from going through all that. I can't imagine living this life without hearing or seeing the man I love. And of cos my family too. I really can't imagine.

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Since I am not working right now, I took the opportunity to learn how to cook. :)

My first dish was prawns masak ape aku tk tau. Some kinda like sweet sour like that lah. Well not bad for a first timer actually. But a bit dry. My next was mee goreng which I find it quite dry also. I don't know why! How to make the mee goreng like basah2 eh?? Next that will be tomorrow is probably gonna be squid. The first two I did it without my mum around tauuuuuu. I must agak2 myself. For tomorrow my mum will teach me. So I guess I didn't really waste my time at home. I learned how to cook! Hopefully my mum will teach me how to cook sotong masak hitam. My favourite yaw!

I'm feeling kinda anxious about Monday's visit. Takot nak bilang die aku tk kerja. Hahaha. No seriously. Takot die memekak. Sekarang tk tau eh. Die banyak membebel tau. Pakai cutex memekak. Padahal dulu tkde pape sey. Like last week. Bebual jer da memekak pakai sluar pendek lah tu lah nie lah. Btw I didn't wear shorts eh that time. Nk mampos? Tak kene maki da bagos.

And damn boy. After Monday's visit, I'm left with 2 more fucking visits yoooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!! After that can say bye bye to Jln Kebasi! Yeeehaaaaaaa!!!!!!! I am so duper fucking excited sia. Hopefully I'll get a job before August. I have like the next whole week to get a job. And yeah, as badly as we want to go for a holiday, I think this year is not really a good time. October he will start his exams. After that peak period sure expensive. Early next yr would be good I guess. For now, kite holiday kat Singapore je sudah lah eh baby. Can?

Baby, I miss you so much!! Can't wait for September. Our sadness is gonna be gone soon. Happiness awaits us. Just like you said. :)

I think this is crazy. I am thinking of working in the airport, AGAIN. Wah. Tak serik2 ker aku nie eh? Somemore got bond leh. I don't wanna end up paying 1.5k again. But, my mind has changed now. I wanna work to save money for marriage already. Plus, BF has a bike now. Not like last time. Amek aku naik MRT pastu pergi Town balik naik NR. That was all memories man. He ever send me to work like 8 9 in the morning taking the bus with me. Then balik pon amek. He ever picks me up like 3 times in a row after he books out at night. See how sweet he is. I was truly touched by that honestly.

Now he can easily pick me up right after work? THAT IF I WORK IN CHANGI AIRPORT AGAIN LAH. Shall discuss with him this Monday.

I feel so freaking stress right now. Seriously. I am back to square one. Jobless. Tell me about it!~
Oh wait. Please don't.

It's been one day that I'm not working and I already feel so stress!! And one more thing, my mum doesn't know that I am jobless. And she have no idea that I will not get my pay for this month cos I went missing just like that. GREAT I TELL YOU. The feeling is awesome man!!! Fuck.

I got less then 2 freaking months. And yours truly here is jobless. Oh well. But no matter what, I won't give up. I already got one job actually. It's at Tuas. The pay is high cos the working hours is a 12 hr shift. Don't think I want it.

Arrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STRESS SIAL!!

It has almost been 1 month since I started working but I still have problems waking up in the morning!!! I told myself no laptop tonight but, again for the 1746498th times, I stubbornly on my laptop once I reached home. Now waiting for dearest mother to come home with my food then I shall go to sleep. Damn hungry and damn sleepy!! Thank God tomorrow word ends at 6pm.

That day I was thinking about painting my room for this year Raya. Maklomlah, this year ade mood skit nak raya. Tak mcm last year.. Anyway, I've been thinking about painting my room red and grey. Confirm nice right??! It has been pink since I was primary 6! And that has been 10 years already!!!! Dari rumah lama sampai skrng. OMG. I was crazy in love with pink last time. Skrng da besar kan, selera pon tuka. Red has been my favourite colour since don't know when. I shall paint before fasting month. And search for black bed sheets. And put some big mirrors from IKEA. And some cool photo frames to grill on the wall. Wah confirm damn nice. Hahaha. We shall see. Shall drag the parents to IKEA one of these days. But paling penting, paint dulu!

So people. Its left with 1 month and 18 more days. I guess I've already started counting down the days. Its a very bad thing actually cos time flies damn slow!!! But I can't help it. :( Too excited you know!!

Ok mummy is back! Shall eat then go to sleep. Gdnight people!

Olaaa~

It's the eve of my off day. Haha. Finally get to use this laptop. Been sleeping really early nowadays. Anyway, I went to meet a friend yesterday. It's been a loooong time since we hang out. Because of some issue. And it's unbelievable that we are even on talking terms right now. Cos I used to hate her like allottttt. I'm talking about the butch that used to like me. We were so close back then but shit happens. Anyway back to my story. We went to watch Eclipse at Jurong Point. I very the lazy to go far far that's why. Before that we had dinner at Banquet. Everything was fine. At first felt a lil awkward but the conversation flows after that. Member da nk kluakn motor besok. Lepas die abis kerja, die ajak g riding lah seyyyy. Padahal ade matair sak.. Asal plak nk klua dgn aku eh? Suspect masih ade feeling kat gue agaknye. Hahahaha. Puhlease eh... Gue da ada pacar ya.

So yeah. I guess we are friends now. :) No time to make enemies lah. So leceh leh.

Tomorrow, it's my turn!! Woopiddooo!! Can't bloody wait to meet that cute boy of mine. After tomorrow's visit, left 3 more visits!!!! OMG!!! Tak sabar siaaaaaaak!!! Yahoooooooo!!!!!!!!!

K bye nak surf website lain.

Sometimes it's really frustrating listening to someone's problem and being a good friend, you will give the best advice you can give but at the end of the day, that person didn't do what you told them to do. And what's even more frustrating is, it's the same problem every single day. Ever experience that? I bet most of you do.

Yes I agree. Sometimes you give the best advice to others but when it comes to your own self, you just lost it. It's definitely easier said then done.

But what if the situation is CLEAR CUT that you should just walk away instantly but you just refuse to? I'm talking about relationship right now. Those poisonous relationship which just sucks you dry. Leaving you with nothing else but your helpless soul. But what if, the other party is the same sex as you? Now that's a different story.

It's clear cut, I mean even a blind man can see it, that it's just not worth a second of your life to suffer because of the other person. If you're a girl, and you're crying over A GIRL, doesn't that sound really stupid?? You're never gonna spend the rest of your life with her what. C'mon! Don't be foolish lah. Because of a person that you know deep down, you're never gonna last, you want to waste your tears and money? Plus time!! Time is so precious. Might as well you spent those 20 mins of crying finding someone, a guy, that you can eventually marry with. I know 20 mins is a very short period lah but you get what I mean right?

I don't understand this friend of mine. The girl she is with now is clearly stamping all over her head but she just refuse to budge!! Omg. Geram you know!! Like what the fuck right?? She's using all her money even if she doesn't even have enough for herself!! Freeloader motherfucker. Even though the girl she is with now is my own friend, I find it really fucking.....ergh! Speechless. I think that is a big mistake. Friends getting together. And they have common friends. When they fight and eventually break up in a bad way, things will definitely won't be the same again. I know.

Even if that girl wants to end it and can no longer stand her sight, just end it in a nice way. Not by treating her like dirt lah! You're just making it worse lor. Haiyo pening pening. I just hope my friend wakes up from her dream and comes back to reality. Her happily ever after is never gonna happen. That's for sure.

Things like this makes me appreciate the love that I got now. Cos I know it's REAL. Even though we fight and swear and curse, at the end of the day, we still love each other and the most important thing is, we can have a family of our own. I know we are not a perfect couple. Nobody is. Every relationship has their own problems. We too. But we work things out. And we have faith in each other. But I'm not gonna boast until my nose kembang cos who knows what will happen in the future. Correct? But Im just so glad that I have him now. Really glad.

5 more days till I get to see him again. Can't wait!

And my brother is going to serve the NS, like finally, in Sep!! 3 days after Raya. He has the same fate as my darling. First son and cucu on my mother's side to go to NS wo. I'm wondering if my mum will cry when sending him off. 2 weeks of not at home. And once a week books out for 3 days and 2 nights for 3 months. We'll see. My brother is going to be a man soon. Hard to believe. He's going to make new, hopefully not setan2 ones, friends in NS. Yeah. I've heard guys changing to be like shit once they went to NS. My brother mix with a lot of chinese. And even the malays are not those matrep type. I hope he will know how to take care of himself. Don't want him to mix with the wrong people and end up getting into trouble. Even though we don't talk much, he is afterall, my brother.

I'm sick. But getting better I guess. Took some cough syrup and flu pill before going to bed yesterday. I was feeling dizzy like as if I drank one can of beer after like 30 mins. Slept at 9.30pm yesterday. And I'm already wide awake now! Time check, 10.15am.

Today's my off day and I don't plan to go out. Actually Yaya, Yati and me was planning to go swimming today but since I'm sick plus, totally broke. I decided to cancel it. Need to go down to TWD to take my pay this Friday. Melecehkn orang tau seriously. Why can't you just bank the shit in? But it's OK. Furthemore gue rinduuu banget dgn budak2 keje. And this Sunday they're planning to watch the WC Final at some restaurant at BUGIS. Already book some tables there. 2.30am siolzxxzz!! Mati gue. But I really wanna see lor! Confirm next day I'll be a walking zombie. That if, I'm able to get myself out of bed!

Bf's mum called me a few days ago. He told me Zul requested to wear the shirt I bought for him when he's released in Sep. The shirt that is with me now. So sweet right? I mean he has a lot of other shirts but he choose to wear the one I bought for him. Kalau boleh nak pakai jeans yang aku kasi but tight already. And I didn't even wash his shirt since June 2009. It doesn't smell though cos I hang it outside my closet. I just don't feel like washing you know. I don't know why.

God, it's less then 2 month to go man. I can't wait lah!!! To be exact, 1 month and 27 days left. I can't wait for fasting month. I can't wait for July to be over. After July, gue da boleh countdown babe!!!! 1 year does pass so damn quickly eh? It feels like just yesterday I celebrated NY with the gang. And how much it has changed since then.

I can't wait to start everything new with him. I just know that he is the One I wanna be with. Even though he has done a big mistake in the past. All is forgiven. Well I heard Lindsay Lohan is going to spend 90 days in jail. That is around 3 months. Oh wow. My baby is out before she is! Haha. Oh too bad. 90 days chicken feet lah babe. Good luck.

Haiya. Baby!!! Faster come back. I'm here waiting for you..

I literally had 13 hours of good sleep today. And I skipped work to continue my beauty sleep. I hope they won't kick me out anytime soon. :X

Meet up with Lyn and Sandy yesterday for some good times but unfortunately Sandy couldn't go in as she was still underaged. There was definitely sadness in her eyes. But, the show must go on. So me, Lyn and Yati spent our night dancing away at Zirca/Rebel. I had a great time except for my stupid new shoe. My feet was in pain man! And you know what? My GST credit is almost finishing!! Fuck. I have to wait for my 5th pay this Monday. I hope they're not gonna be a bitch like they are now and give me late payment.

Its 1st July today!!!!!!! Yahhhooooooooooo!!!!!!! 2 more months baby. Just 2 more months and that's it. Once July is over, I can start to countdown already. Omg. The day is nearing! The day that I have been waiting for since 16 June 2009 is coming.

He asked me again the bonus q yesterday. He asked me why am I waiting for him? He got nothing to offer, he can't promise me anything then why am I still waiting for him. I just told him I love him and I'm taking the chance to be with him. Even though there's no 100% guarentee that we will be together till the end of time. I don't know what's gonna happen to us. Who knows. Maybe I will end up marrying him or touchwood, we got separated or what. But love is a gamble. You will never know if you try. And it's either you win or you lose. I just pray to God, HE will keep us safe and let us be together till our last breathe. But of cos, deep in my heart, I am scared of what's gonna happen to us in the future. I can just hope for the best.

I just wanna be with you Md Faizrul.

Daya I'm a sucker for LOVE. Not interested in dramas. Deeply in love with her one and only, Mohd Faizrul <3

I know you want me,you know I want you too.

Lovers and Fighters Since 20th July 2007