It's only been 2 days and I'm already missing that bacin boy so much leh. I feel neglected by him. I know, so drama mama sak this girl. But really. It's only been 2 days he's working. NS work not counted eh. And I already feel neglected. Belom lagi keje full time. As much I hate to admit, sometimes I think my ego is bigger then his. Sometimes I dont tell him that I miss him till he say it first. Padahal i'm missing him so much. But usually before I can say I miss him, he early2 tell me he miss me already. Then how like that? Everytime complain I never say I miss him.

Another thing, i'm very very sick of staying home and not working. I might just go for a try out tomorrow. If no choice already. I'll take whatever that comes my way. I've thrown so interviews already. I think around 10. Some I confirm I will get one. Haiya. Shouldnt be so picky!!

Kk chow.

Hey world. I guess I was in a bad mood just now. Ergh once again, i failed to control my feelings. Its so damn hard you know. I guess I got my anger from my dad. I easily get angry. Not like my mum. Cos my mum is not an angry person. She does get angry lah but she rarely shouts. But yeah her voice tends to be louder when she's angry but not shouting. Different from my dad. Whenever hes angry, he will shout. And my mum actually hates people who shouts at their children cos to her that's not the right way to teach childrens. And my mum is a very patient mum. Seriously. And i'm not patient. When she's angry, she still can talk. But for me, i like to shout. Just like my dad too. -__- Haha. I guess i'm more to my dad. Same behaviour, same body shape. Cannot get fat, at all. I've seen photos when he was still young and guess what, nothing has changed lah ok! Exactly the same body shape. But in love life, i follow my mum. She practically married her first bf which is my dad. And she's not that miang/mentel girl. Like some girls nampak laki hensem jer trus mengiliat mcm cacing kepanasan. Well not me. She said kalau kite sume ikot die, then kite tk gatal punye orang. Kalau ikot my dad, different cos he used to have a lot of gfs before my mum. Haha.

Anyway, i'll be working with love later in the night. Da lame benar kite tak kerja same2..

K guys me wanna sleep. Have a great weekend!

Stop thinking that I can bloody read your mind, you fuck!
I'm fucking sick and tired of you saying what's really in your mind AFTER I make a decision. "actually bla3.. Abeh u da ckp gtu den I just said OK la."
Fuck!! Why can't you just said it even after I make the decision?? Not telling me hours later?! Fucking hell. Buat aku darah naik ar.

I'm not talking about one occasion. I'm talking about ALOT of occasions!!!!! Slalu ar gtu!! I need a leader not a follower! Even though he wears the pants, i'm definitely the one controlling the zip. In making decisions, that is! Fuck sia. And its worse that today's my first day. Everything he said, will be NOT ok to me.

You better not say anything more that triggers my wire!!!

I hate you..........

But I love you even much much muchhhhhhhhh more.

I love you......

But I hate you too.

You should feel thankful because of my existance in his life. You should feel thankful that I waited for him for 1 fucking year to be with him again. Who in this freaking world would wanna go through that for someone whose not even their fiance to begin with.

And to think you said that about something that you're not even sure yet?! Makes me feel extremely pissed off! Why in the hell do i get the blame for his lying?? Doesnt fucking make sense.

When i grow up, i will never blame anyone kids for my kids wrongdoings. Cos end up, my kids will grow up to be worst then the kid that i accused. It usually happens that way. God is very fair. What you say is what you will get.

And please open your mindset. Don't think he is that angelic to begin with.

Hello helloooo! In 2 and a half hours more, we'll be on our way to KL. Really excited. Hopefully it will be a fun experience for the both of us. I pray to God nothing will happen to us during our stay there. And of cos the journey to and fro. Amin.

Later!!

Im still in shock. My ex classmate passed away this morning due to traffic accident. Even though we might not be close, i did catch up with him through msn sometimes. And i just can't believe it that he's gone now. It makes me realise that you can go anytime. And personally, this is my first time getting to know a friend just passed away. Its unbelievable. Ajal maut di tangan Tuhan. May his soul rest in peace. Dan semoga dosa2 nye diampuni Tuhan. Amin.

Rest in peace Izwandi bin Rosli.

Being with you makes me happy. I love the way you hold my hand. I love the way you kiss my forehead. I love the way hug me. I just love the way you are. You shower me with lots of love and i'm grateful. To be honest, i think you express your love towards me more then I do. You never fail to say you love me every single time we meet. The way you stare at me still makes me heart beat so fast.

I know i'm a jealous freak. I hate girls who touches you or stand so near you or look at you like she has just fallen in love. I dont care who that girl is. Either your friend or my friend. I hate to share. You should know by now.

And to whoever, sorry your flirting technics are so not working. Dont even think to try even harder. Nothing can come between us. I'm so not letting.

And ive read somemore that single girls are attracted to guys who are attached. Is it true? I guess for some it is true.

You will never believe it till it happens right infront of you.

And i definitely don't like what I saw. According to my book of rules, you bloody crossed my line.
I was thissss close to burst it out. You tested my patience. _|_

Hmmm.. Nasib baik lah aku tkde adik perempuan atau kakak. Lagi2 klau mulot mcm jubo ayam. Pasal mulot, badan binasa. Pasal mulot jugak, boleh porak peranda satu family atau dgn kawan atau dgn sape2 lah.

In life, you have to know when to keep your mouth shut and when to talk.

Omg. It's already been a week and that HR hasn't call me yet!!! Fuck. I need to get my money by Sat the latest. Don't play play hor!!! Worst case scenario, that bitch found out that I'm taking my pay by HR itself and she wants to hold my pay. She can jolly well fuck the hell off.

Argh stress ok! I've so many things to settle lah. My god. Stress sampai fringe aku da fade jadi grey! Baik2 blue black trus jadi grey nie.

Why is MTV keep playing the same songs everyday??!!

Hello all!! I've finally found an app that allows me to blog!! Yahoo! Now can blog wherever and whenever I want. Because of my missing in action laptop, i've decided to blog at my livejournal. Not private though. If not busy go and read lah. That if, if you know my url.

A few days back me and him got into a fight. It started from me saying that this particular friend of mine doesnt like him when we just started dating but everything's fine now. Abe that budak tk puas hati. Den dono how it got bad. I even asked him to fuck off. Hah!! Cos he said something that hurt me. And i realised that i'm quite aggresive and stand on my ground whenever we fight. I dont give in easily now. 14 months of independence taught me a lesson I guess. Haah. But everything fine now of cos.

The day after we still went out with our plan to go Sentosa. Things got better and we had the most amazing time at Sentosa that day. The weather was perfect for tanning. Everything was going well. But it rained when we reached Sentosa. Told him its gonna rain for awhile but it will stop later. And it did lor! And the sun was blazing hot i tell you! But we had so much fun that day.

Might be going to JB later with him. He forgot to take back his original headlight after changing it yesterday. So damn careless lor!!! Hopefully the shopkeeper baik hati give him back cos i got a feeling that action2 throw it away. Padahal dorang simpan. Haish. Really2 hope its still there. If not, money gone. Need to buy if there's inspection.

Okla bye guys.