Thursday, November 11, 2010

I feel like running away. Running from everything in this life. If only there's a reset button.

I'm sick and tired of myself. I hate the way I am. Not on the outside but on the inside. I seriously hate ME. Just feel like killing myself. Where's that happy-go-lucky Daya? The one who doesn't give a fuck. The one who doesn't really bother whether this guy is interested in her or not. The one who was not paranoid or insecure with the people around her? I WANT HER BACK!!!!!!!

Why the fuck am I like this? Do I have myself to blame??!!
I ONLY HAVE MYSELF TO BLAME.
Every human being in this world has a choice. But I choose to let people step all over me, lie to me, crushed my self-esteem till I feel so insecure. Taking advantage of my kindness. I didn't know it would affect me in the long run.

If ever I was back to being alone, I don't think I will be the same girl ever again. I will be a girl with lots of baggage that no guy can ever stand me. Yes, I'm probably at my lowest right now this year. I'm so messed up. :'( And I only have myself to blame for this.................

I just hope somebody will save me from myself.


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I'm a sucker for LOVE.
Not interested in dramas.
Deeply in love with her one and only,
Mohd Faizrul <3