Thursday, August 26, 2010

8 days left.

Honestly, there's so many things on my mind right now. I'm so stressed up. TOTALLY. I feel like I have so many things to do yet so little time. One big problem is my current job..

As you know, or don't know, he really hates my current job. I think he wants me to quit like NOW. I wish I could but I want to make this as my part-time job you see. So that I'll have extra income in the future. I mean if I'm working at other place during office hours. Because I got to know that PT staff earns more then those FT. How unfair! They work less then 6 days and they get the same as us. And I haven't even tell me IC that I want to change. Oh God. I keep delaying it till now. FML. REALLY FML.

And he's coming out this next Friday and I'm sure I have to work on that day. Seriously fuck lah. I won't have time to go out with him. Don't even talk about Saturday. I used to really look forward to Sat with him. Do you know that I feel like shit?! And he wants to take off till 13 Sep and I FUCKING KNOW I HAVE TO WORK. THAT SERIOUSLY MAKES ME FEEL EVEN MORE SHITTER THEN EVER. I feel so bad for not being with him. But honestly, I really hope he understands my situation. It's not like I can't MIA. I can always do that and according to him, that's what I do best. It's just that I WANT THIS TO MAKE AS MY EXTRA INCOME. I can work 3 times per week. That extra money can really help us. And I get my pay twice a month. And he, after ORD-ing also I don't know what type of job he will get. Who knows he will get shift jobs? Those which need to work at night. Then I also can work my night job right? To keep me company.

I can't be like last time. MIA-ING from work just to spent time with him. Till when? Might as well we get married and I just stay home and wait for him to come back from work everyday. And I need to work. Well he thinks that I don't need to pay anything. You are so wrong baby. I have to pay off my internet and hp bills that can accumulate to $160-$200. And I have to give my mom money. Plus transport money and food money. Everything needs money. I can't only depend on my parents or even you right? You have you own needs and I have my own needs too. Haiz. Seriously I am so stress right now.

I just hope that things won't become worse between us because of this. Distance won't pull us apart. If we can work things out when he's inside, why not now? There's always the phone and he has a bike. We can meet anytime we want. ANTARA NAK ATAU TAKNAK JEK.

AND FUCK. DON'T EVEN TALK ABOUT HARI RAYA.










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Not interested in dramas.
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