DAYAZUL <3.

Today's first practical went quite well. Learned a few things. And my first experience driving a car in the heavy rain! But quite boring. I want to drive at the main road! Haha. Tak tau sabar betol nie anak. But luckily not lah cos I haven't get a grip of how the car works and all. But it was quite fun though. And my FTT is in July!!! Yalah so long right??? 3 months from now. All the slots are fully booked. The earliest I can get is July. Nvm. Got time to study. And I hope the 3rd time is a charm. Bloody shit.

Alright. Wanna continue watching my Gossip Girls!!

I'm a sad girl today. I was so looking forward to coming back home to read his letter. But unfortunately there was none. How could that be!!!!!! Usually its on Wed or Thursday. My heart dropped when I saw nothing on the table. Seriously, I'm damn sad.

Cilake punyer army. Tak buat keje per gondolsszzsx???!!! Lembab nak mampos siak post surat orang!!!!

Omg. I feel so sleepy to the max right now. Been sleeping late everyday. Yesterday I made a promise to myself that I'm gonna sleep once I reached home but then, last min plans by the gondols. Chilling at West Coast park. But it was fun though. As usual. Reached home around 5, can't sleep. Slept near 6. Woke up at 1145 to visit my baby. Took cab to and fro. Lazy bummer today.

Just now visit was as usual, sweet and nice. He looks so cute just now or maybe I missed him too much. Had fun talking to him. He asked me the bonus q just now. " Why are you waiting for me? ". Of cos the first reason is because I love him so much. Secondly, I can never find anyone who can makes me happy like he does. Third, we've been through so much together for the past few years. I just can't forget all that and just move on. I love him too much to let go. He's like a drug that I'm addicted to. I just can't seem to walk away. I know I may not be his first love, but I wish to be his last. As for me, he is my first real love and insyallah, my last. I love you, Md Faizrul.

I guess I'll be taking a nap later on. Damn too sleepy. And oh, I've took out my stud. But I did replaced it with a small stud that people cant see. Sayang lah nak kasi lobang die tutop. And, my first prac will be this Monday. Finallyyyyyyy. After months and months of contemplating. Boyfriend wished me good luck just now.

And you know what? Boyfriend told me someone told him that the person saw me at IMM last 3 4 weeks ago. And I was there once after I took my laptop. Wah scary shit ok. Report strength to him. And I've no idea who! Must be the one of the guards down there.

Ok chiow people.

Alright. I'm gonna update my blog before I go to sleep. Its 5am already!! Been sleeping really late eversince I got this laptop. If not, I'll be out with the usual peeps till morning. Oh usually we catch the midnight movies at Cine.

The last outing was what else if not movies right.. Caught Kick-Ass last Saturday. I like it! But most of them says its boringgg. What boring?? Don't know how to appreciate fighting movies. Hehe.
Anyway we went home straight after that. Abang Bo sent us home, as usual. Izah, Kama, Khafiz and Azmie has their own bike. Sometimes, these past few outings, I'll be riding with Kama. But of cos when it's going home time, Abang Bo will be the one sending me home lah. Now that Yaya has start school, most probably she wont be able to join us frequently now. :( Maybe weekends la eh.

Well today was not so boring as I thought. Even though Kama, Izah and Yati wasnt there. Lucky there was Khafiz!! Or else I'll be bored to death, I tell you!! Talked to him most of the time. Layan-ing his merepekness.

And oh, we turned 33 months today. Still standing strong despite the obstacles we're going through right now. I know, our love is deep. Not even the distance can tear us apart. Can you beat that, huh huh huh?? Being separated for 14 months. I'm not trying to sound cocky but it's hard to find someone who will stick by her man like glue for 14 months (psst, we're not even married and engaged) and not have any extra flings outside while waiting. And that's me. :) Yes of cos I've made some new guy friends along the way but that's it. And I don't even contact any of them now. Not even one. I'm honestly proud of how strong I can be. I've learned some new things about myself along the way too.. :)

So one more day till I get to meet him. I can't wait!!! Printed some photos for him. I love that boy so much man.

Ok goodnight people.

This week passed by so fast. Don't you think? I love it. That means I'm one day closer to meeting him. Woohoo.

So anyway the last 3 days was Songkran festival. The final day all of us got wet! And I mean really wet. I was being pulled by those bartendars into a big tub of ice water!!! And they literally carried me and put me inside that damn big box. Walauwei!! My shirt and pants and shoes were all wet sia! Lucky my hp wasnt with me!! But all of us had a great time splashing water at each other!! What an experience. I love it. Hahaha. Biler lagi nak campak2 air dalam restaurant, you tell me?? Once in a lifetime you know. Lagi2 kat Singapore. I'm glad I got a chance to experience this.

After work, me and the rest of the gang went to Spize for supper. But end up going to Newton after we ordered our drinks. So yeah, I got to eat my chilli crab, kerang and beef kailan. Those 3 are a must for when Im having seafood. Reached home around 5 plus.

Tomorrow will be meeting Yati, Kama and Izah at 1pm. Tu Kama and Izah da ader motor kan... Senang skit lah kiter nak travel around. Hahaha. But wasted my helmet da kene chongkong dgn matair adik aku. My $80 helmet seyyyy.. :( Sad lor. My first helmet tau. And I loved that helmet so much. Nvm. Once my baby is out, I'm gonna buy a new helmet. For now, I'm using Yati's helmet.

Oh, my lesbian partner Yaya, is no longer working as per normal. Only once in a month? I don't know. Gonna miss her bimbotic act man. She's my partner in crime at work and off work. Gonna miss you babe!! Nvm. We still can hangout sometime right? Don't forget me ok when you start school. Hopes she read my blog. Hahaha.

Btw I've created a secret blog only I know. Well nothing much. Just a blog about me and my dearest baby. Its about us lah of cos. Hehe. Toodles!

You disgust me. Trying too hard? I can see that. You know, you don't really need to show your so called happiness all over the net. Because its disgusting. And I dont think it comes from the heart. Trying to show people that you're happy when infact... you're not! Oh well.. Keep on pretending.

Got the cheek to text me how am I when you know that I know whatever that has happened. Seriously?? Is your skin THAT thick? You seriously disgust me a wholeee lot!!! Gosh. When will you ever quit? I can't wait to not see you again ever in my whole life. Get a life, bitch. If you don't have one, don't go around ruining other people's lives.

And please, wake up will ya? You are so old already!

You know, sometimes I do pity you cos your whole life, you don't have a story.

I had the worst working day of my life yesterday eversince I started working there.
We had a system breakdown for like an hour. An hour makes a whole lot of difference fyi. And it was busy!!! None of the system works. Can you imagine the chaos?
But everything settled at the end of the day. Lucky no short of cash. If not mati!!

Alright I've already done my resume. Time to start sending!! Most probably by tonight I'll be sending my resumes. I guess its time. Furthermore Yaya will be starting school soon. And she's like my partner in crime at work. Work will be super boring without her around lah. Gonna miss you bimbotic act babe. Hahaha.

Hopefully no Monday blues today. Ku keseorangan nari. :( Yaya tkde. Yati tkde. Kama tkde. Haiya.

Ok bye.

Facebook is taking so damn long to load!!!! Damn it sia. Make me angry only!

Anyway I guess I'm more active in the twitterworld. I'll be twittering every 1 to 2 hours? But not like some who tweets like every min of the day. I wish I could be like that but me very lazy lah. Tak important sangat I wont tweet. Haha. Ohh I've already sent baby his letter. Damn fast ok. Yelah. Already promised him that from now on no more late letters.

And I've promised him that I'll be taking off my piercing by the end of this 2 weeks. Haiyaaa. 50$ gone. He said I look minah and I'm spoiling my image! Haiyaaa. Or should I just dye my hair black? Haiya haiya... Klah sayangku. Anything for you k.

I went on a mini shopping spree just now cos all the items I bought was on sale! Cheap and good! Actually I'm feeling damn sleepy right now. I guess I'll be sleeping soon.

Update soon!

I'm not sure if I made a good or bad decision just now but the damage is done.

I signed up for a 25 years saving plan under OUB. Ya.... 25yrs!!!!!!!!!!!
In the long run, its a good thing cos when I'm old and kerepot, I'll be rich! But the bad thing is, when I'm 25, I can only take out like 3k plus. How to kahwin?? That means I have to have another saving on my own. Gosh. I only thought of saving atleast 500$ by September for baby's home coming. Home coming keper.... But I end up saving for 25 yrs! Okok. I guess its a good thing la hor..

Anyway I've already bought Mummy her birthday gift. A bag from Charles and Keith. I like it.. I hope she will like it. I think she will lah...

Bought some essentials for myself. Enough for this month. I hope. Oh I had a lecturing session just now from the bf. He asked me whether I still drink or not and he sounds pretty mad when I said I havent really stop. He even question me about cooking and clubbing. He didnt believe when I said this yr I only went clubbing like less then 5? But I know not a lot. And I know he doesnt wanna let me go this Friday... Haiz... Bukan aku degil tanak dngr cakap, but sometimes the situation force me to.

I love my boyfriend sooo much. I'll do anything for him but right now its kinda hard. And he wants me to take out my piercing... like now. I guess I'll do that... I give myself 2 weeks. The next time he sees me, it will be gone... I hope. *fingers crossed*

I was feeling quite upset yesterday. Cos I found out on my own that I might be sharing my 30 mins visit with someone else. I've been waiting patiently for my next visit only to know I have to share it. It really pisses me off, seriously. Why must it be my visit? Why can't it be theirs right? I mean family wont run away no matter what. For me, Im not even married or engaged to him. I need those some time alone to connect back with him and just have some personal time together. Even though its just 30 mins! Hey, 30 mins means so much ok. Fuck. Whatever lah. Hopefully just for tomorrow.
Yes, I'm selfish like that. I want him all by myself. I hate sharing! Sharing is evil.

And oh, today is my Mum's Birthday and I havent get her anything..
Anyway Happy Birthday Mum!!!! I love you alot even though I don't say it. Can't imagine life without you, Mum. Hopefully you will lead a healthy life ahead. And mudah mudahan Tuhan panjangkn umur mama. Amin.

I'll be taking an effort to update my blog almost everyday. Even if there's no one who reads it.

2 more days to payday. 5 more days to visit my baby dearest. I can't wait for the visit more. Sometimes I wish I can visit him everyweek,alone. But I cant be selfish right. So once every 2 weeks alone is already good enough. Honestly, if I can visit him every single day, I will. No doubt about that. I dont mind going back and forth as long as I get to see him everyday. I'll cross the ocean for him if I have to.

I know, why is it alwayssssss about him? Cos that's how I keep the love alive. Well you think its easy? Keeping the fire burning without him by myside? Its all in the mind. If in your mind, you want it to work, it will. But if in your mind, you keep saying this will never work out, things will die sooner or later. We still do communicate well for the past 9 months. Through letters and visits. But mostly letters. In each letter, we will tell how much we miss or love each other. I tell him about things that happened in my life. Every single letter. Its hard maintaining a good relationship when the other party is not around. But with the trust he has for me, and the bond between us, makes things a whole lot easier.

Even without meeting each other anytime we want, I still dont sense any awkwardness between us. On every visit, there's always things to catch up on. I doubt things between us will change when he comes out. Yes it will actually. We will definitely be much closer then before. Ok enough about my love life.

Sometimes I do pity her. But most of the times, I cant stand her. I thought as you grow older, you become wiser but some people become the opposite. I felt really angry towards that someone just now. Seriously. I just cant believe that she still cant let it go when the others has long time forgotten about it. I actually did thought of talking to her again but what happened just now, makes me hate her even more. So i guess, not talking is still the best. Im washing my hands off her. I already did like a week plus ago.

Oh anyway I watched Dear John yesterday. Online. Oh my god. That show really makes me bawl out my eyes. I watched it the minute I reached home yesterday around 6. I cried like around 5 times through out the movie. I really felt them man. The letters and the distance between John and Savannah. Heart pain. I really cried like realllyyy cried when Savannah told John she wanted out. That part, I was sobbing like crazy!! That show makes me miss my Faizrul so so much man.

Alright then. Im feeling really sleepy now. Gonna head to bed. Hopefully I dream of my love.
Goodnight world. Goodnight my Sweetheart.
I love you, always.

I just got home. Watched Clash of the Titans with Nanie and hubby, Yati, Kama and Izah. Not bad. I like it..

It was raining when we finished watching. But eventually stopped. While on the expressway, I miss my baby suddenly. Remembered the times when we ride in the rain. I always let him wear the gotex to prevent him from getting wet and cold while I'll hug him from behind. His body already prevent me from the wet while the gotex keeps me from cold too so both happy. Haiz. Miss those times. Its 5.34am right now and I'm missing him so badly...

Rainy days like this alwaysss makes me miss him even more. And we rode pass the DB. But there's this long lane that you have to walk through before reaching DB. And from the main rd you cant see it. And when we passed there, I was looking at the lane when Yati said ' Da Daya. Bukannye kau leh nampak dlm.' Then I just smiled. Looking at that lane already makes me happy. Cos I was near to him yet so far. I know Im such an emotional girl. Well cant help it.

Okla.. Better go to sleep now.

Baby, Im missing you like crazy right now. Can't wait to see you next Wed. I love you Sweetheart.

Love Idiots.

Hello people.. I'm back! For good. Yes yes. I actually got my laptop like last Monday but I was too busy downloading some stuff and shitx till I didnt have time to update. Actaully tu sume alasan. I was just plain lazy. Hahahaha.

Ok right now Im not sure where should I be active at? Blogger or LJ? Well what I know is I wont and cant delete my blogspot cos it holds toooo much memories between me and my baby. Deleting it means deleting all my memories away. Its just sad. Well same goes to LJ. That is why Im confused!! Oh well... Let me think about it..

Today's my off day and I didnt go out. Instead I stayed home, online till 8. And finally had my bath cos we're having dinner outside as a family. And mummy dearest so kind to bring me eat seafood cos I told her I kempunan nak makan crab. Hehe.
And I got my letter from baby and dress from SF. My baby so cute you know!!! Hahaha. Never fails to make me laugh no matter where you are. Love him so much..
As my dress, it fits nicely.. Well, i must keep it in good condition cos maybe im planning to wear that when baby comes out in 5 months time... Argh... Can't wait man!!!

Can't wait to visit him next week. Missing him alot..

I just told my close friend that I've already broke up with baby and she was like HUH!!! kau biar betol. Kau sayang die nak mampos.
Skali die ckp eh babi, nari april fool. diam kau!
HAHAHA. Baru nk trick die. tak menjadi. hahaha.

NOONE WILL BELIEVE ME IF I SAY IM LEAVING HIM COS I LOVE HIM TOOOOOOOO MUCH TO LET GO.

See baby. The whole knows my heart belongs to u. And everyone knows I F LOVE U.

Daya I'm a sucker for LOVE. Not interested in dramas. Deeply in love with her one and only, Mohd Faizrul <3

I know you want me,you know I want you too.

Lovers and Fighters Since 20th July 2007