Thursday, August 27, 2009

He'll be having 22 months of Detention starting from 16 June. Left with 20 months now. But yesterday he told his mum that he'll be out in 2010 September. Kalau betol2, its 2011 April. Minus public hols and stuff. Well hopefully what he said is true.

I can only start visiting him in Oct. The first time I saw him after 2 months of not seeing, the feeling was .......... It felt unreal. After all the sentencing, we all get to meet him but he was behind bars and his hand was being handcuffed. And we had to stand behind the yellow line. Tapi mak die tolak aku suruh pergi dekat Zul, pelok and cium die. Yang paling kecian adik die yang kecik, airmata meleleh non stop dari court room sampai lah dabis jumpe abang die. Haiz. I managed to kiss his cheeks and hug him. Tu pon tak puas siak.

Yesterday he told his mum he wants me to send my latest picture every week.

When I saw him and get to talk to him, I was speechless. Aku tk tau ape nak cakap. And I dont know where to even begin. I only look at him in the eye and cry. He was like so gelisah seeing me cry cos he cant do anything. He just said I love you, I love you very much. Infront of his family.

I stayed and break fast at his house on that Monday. Da nak alik, adik kecik die antar aku bawah blok. She hug me and kiss my cheeks. Mcm so sweet gitukn. After a few step, boom. Melalak siak. Sedih giler. Jalan g Mrt, air mata meleleh. Dalam mrt, the whole journey, tears was streaming down my face. I felt so fucking sad like fuck siak. You have no idea how I felt. My heart was in pain.

Being seperated till 2011 is a nightmare!!!!!!!! Ya allah.
Give me strength to go through all this.

But like what Yati said, I still have to give him the support because he needs it more then ever. Just keep thinking of your happy moments and that will keep you alive to wait for him.
Dont think of the days. Kejam kelip, all this will be over soon..


Haiz.. Why me? Why must all this happen when he's with me?
I guess all this has been written in the book. Its all fate..










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I'm a sucker for LOVE.
Not interested in dramas.
Deeply in love with her one and only,
Mohd Faizrul <3