DAYAZUL <3.

Yesterday was my off day. If I know, I would'nt step out of the house. I spent around 200 on things! God. So much for saving!!!!!

First I went to BBDC to activate my account and book my FTT. The earliest is next month on the 4th. No slots for Sep and Oct. Actually to me next month is damn early la. But no choice. So I just took the August slot. Now need to go Popular by the book. Sampai sane I was like blur siak. The first time I went there was with Zul. Beh nie aku g sorang. I was like shit. Got to be independant now.. Do things on my own now.. Sedih per... Nvm. Must have determination. Hopefully I just need to take my FTT once like my BTT. After that can start on my practicals.

After that took cab to Admiralty to meet Aishah at Marsling Poly. She took mc to go out with me. Gitu gini reach town around 5 plus. Straight go Far East. I bought a black jacket from The Best of Blogshops. So many nice things! There was so many clothes from different blogs. Combine together, open shop. Cool right. Then after that had dinner at Sakura. Then jalan2, we bought full length leggings to go with my jacket. Mine was latex. But not so shiny2 one la. Ok2 la. Aishah's was the cotton one. After that we went to Taka and Wisma. Bought one top from Mango, Top from Cotton on, Bra from Cotton on Body, whatelse else? Bought a shoe from Substance. We bought the same pair. Since the second one would be 50% off. Quite a bargain la. Whatelse ar I bought??? Yeah. I think that's all. I can't believe I spent like 200 bucks yesterday. Duit untok saving pon da terpakai. Cibai right me. Met Noh also yesterday. Met him around 9 plus. And also his friend and his gf. Ate near Somerset. The mama shop there. Eat, talk cock. Another one of his friend joined us around 11 plus. Da gitu tkper. Last minute dorang nak g Karoake. Aku pon ar sembarang lah. Ingatkn tk nyanyi. Nyanyi jugak aku. Okla fun. Blah dari Cash Studio around 3. Bla2 reached home around 4. Somehow I feel kinda guilty having fun. Ya call me crazy. Aku rase macam aku kat luar happy2 and Zul kt dlm sedih2. Haiz. But its ok what. Right? Im having all this 'fun' to distract myself and make myself happy. Takan aku nak sedih jer? Sampai biler kan? And I told myself, Zul deserve this. For 2 years, we've been fighting over and over and over again about this. All my naggings all gone to waste. Since die tknak and tk pernah nak dngr ckp aku, den serve him right. Serve him right for playing behind my back all this while. Nak sangat amek dadah kan. Ar amek ar kau. Da kene tangkap, sendiri merana nak nangis2. Too late. Yes. Memang aku sedih, I still cry at night thinking about this but what to do. I can't do anything. Let him have a taste of his medicine. Selagi kepale tk terantok, selagi tu die tak akan stop. Nie kepale da terantok, rasekan lah. Things happen for a reason. I have to keep telling myself that. For now, aku da serahkan kepade takdir.

And if not for the CLEO shit fucking cibai, I could have save 100 bucks. Macam nak hilangkn diri je siol. Die da panggil aku fucking selfish. Nak aku tunjukn per sial akunye betol2 selfish?! Kalau aku betol2 selfish, I wouldnt even wanna bother bout paying you back, BODOH!!! Klah, since kau cakap aku pentingkn diri and selfish, aku tunjukan ape sebenarnye it means k. Senang je. Hilangkn diri and don't pay a single cent!

Daya I'm a sucker for LOVE. Not interested in dramas. Deeply in love with her one and only, Mohd Faizrul <3

I know you want me,you know I want you too.

Lovers and Fighters Since 20th July 2007