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Friday, June 19, 2009
When I'm with friends, I can be happy and smiling and laughing, but deep inside, I will still think of Zul and I will feel sad. But I won't really show by putting on a smile.. But when you're back to alone, the feelings start to suck it up on you and you will feel fucking shitty like fuck. Its fucking horrible la the feeling. I hate it!! And even though I'm with friends, I still feel lonely....... Its just not the same when I'm with him... For 2 years, wherever we go, we go together. Name it.. Town, esplanade, clarke quay, boat quay, bugis etc... Almost every corner of Spore, I've been with him.. How to forget? The feeling of not being with him for a long time, KILLS ME. It really does.. Whenever I think of that, I lose my appetite. Just now, whenever I feel like buying something, I will stop myself. Cos I kept thinking about that time we fought about my spendings.. Argh.. I just wish I can hear him nag at me again.. I miss all those fights we had....... :'( Nobody knows how I feel right now... Nobody. Maybe except his mum. God, please save him... And tolong la cepat kan lah sentence die.. The longer it takes, the more stressful I am.... |
    
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