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Wednesday, June 17, 2009
First of all, I just want to say thanks to LYN for accompanying me on Monday night and today's night. Appreciate it so much! Atleast there's someone who can keep my mind off things. To be honest, I'm still not OK. I cried a few times at work just now. I don't why I burts out crying a few times. Haiz.. And I fucking don't know why everywhere I go, it reminds me of him. ERGH!!! This is so hard then I expected. I got to keep myself busy. Like DAMN BUSY. So far, we haven't got any news about my baby. Hopefully, by 12 midnight, everything will be settle and they will officially let the army handle him. Oh god, please help my Faizrul... And I hope, he will get 8 months of sentence since its his first time.. Daya, be strong. Everything's gonna be alright. Like what my sayang will say 'Always look on the brightside of life'. And remember our good times together and you'll be ok. Argh. I fucking miss him so much!!! So fucking much, you have no idea HOW MUCH I fucking miss him. I just need to know how many months will he be sentenced and everything will be settle. I have so many plans that I want to do when he's gone. I wanna take my car license. I wanna save up money and make a big celebration when he's out. These are the two important things that I need to do from now onwards. I think I got this job for a reason, at the right time. This job will take up most of my time and I'm definitely happy cos this will keep my mind off things. I have so many things to say actually.. I have this very strong determination that I will wait for him. There are some things that keeps me going... And it all comes from him. We have already promise each other, no matter what happens, we will stick by each other. And this will be the ONLY promise that are not meant to be broken. He told me many times that he wants me to be his wife. He ever told me 'do you know if a guy says he wants you to be his wife, that means he really has made up his mind that you're the one for him....?'. This may sound stupid but this really give me the determination to wait for him. I can never find someone like him. Never. Maybe close but noone just like him. Why must this happen when we are still madly deeply inlove? Haiz...... All I can do now is to wait for news from his mum. No bad news please. But I have a good feeling that he's gonna be ok........ |
    
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