Saturday, March 7, 2009

I wish words can explain exactly what I feel right now but no, it can't.

I am not happy. Period. I am dissapointed, sad and angry.

I am not sure if the risks I've been taking since Day 1 is worth my time or my tears that has been flowing ever since. I had my chances to run away, run away from heartaches and whats not. But I took the risk and stayed. Stayed, hoping to have my fairytale. But I realized, fairytales don't always have a happy ending.

Maybe I made a mistake. I made a mistake for putting my heart and soul in this relationship. Always trying too hard. Always trying to solve the problems. Hoping that the other party will realize how much this mean to me. But in the end? What do I get?

Girls are just to soft when it comes to Love. And I agree when they say ' when a guy did a mistake, big or small, they will beg and seek forgiveness and in the end, the girl will be all soft from it and take him back but when a girl make a small mistake, no matter what you say or do, the guy won't listen. And when he say no its means no'.

And to think of it, I'm not even sure what MAJOR mistake I made to be treated this way.

But the best part is, here I am, trying to work things out, while the other party happily hangout with friends, laughing and joking. While I'm crying my heart out. Its not worth it. It is just NOT worth it Daya.

If this is how you want it to be, if this is what that makes YOU happy, then fine with me.
I won't stop you anymore.

And please remember, I have my limits when it comes to being patience. Its running dry.
I was really this close from giving up. Really. Something triggered my brain and told me to give up.

I guess its time for me to withdraw abit.

A friend of mine told me I'm just so too into my boyfriend till I neglected my friends. :(
I totally agree with that. I am sorry.



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I really think that some of his friends are really a bunch of inconsiderate human beings. I mean, don't they know that he has a gf??!! But yet still want to meet him on Friday and Saturday to hang out. Eh hello?! Kau bodoh keper?? Yelah dngr2 die single per weekend pon leh jumpe kau 24/7. Beh dngr2 aku leh jumpe die per weekdays?? BETOLNYE BENGAP NK MAMPOS SIAL! Da bagos tu Friday aku kasi die jumpe korang and tk jumpe aku, beh on Saturday pon masih nk jumpe per??!!! Bodoh sial.

I am seriously starting to hate them! ERGH!!!!!!!!!!










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Daya
I'm a sucker for LOVE.
Not interested in dramas.
Deeply in love with her one and only,
Mohd Faizrul <3