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Thursday, February 5, 2009
I was born in a family where we dont show how much we love each other. Maybe it's because both of my parents are brought up that way. Kisses and hugs probably dont exist except for when we were still young. But nonetheless, I know my parents love me. I mean, which parent don't love their children? Thus, that makes me who I am today. I am very bad at expressing my feelings. Very very bad. I feel...awkward when I do that. And Im not the kinda girl who will 'manja2' with the boyfriend 24/7. My bf will agree on this one. He even told me that it's hard to 'manja2' with me. But its not like everytime right?? Everysince I met him almost two years ago, I opened up quite alot. And I mean alot. That's what I feel. I used to feel awkward to make the first move to hug him, to hold his hands, to kiss him on the cheeks(still do actually. He always has to ask me for a kiss on the cheeks. Hahaha) to say 'ILOVEU' and many many more. Before him, the longest relationship I had was a month plus. That explains why I was not comfortable doing all that with him. Lack of experience, they say. HAHAHAHA. And I used to keep EVERYTHING in me. Whatever he did that hurt me, I kept it inside. I was afraid to let him know my true feelings. But as months pass, I started to let him know how I feel. And I realised that that makes me feel so much better! So now, whatever that Im not happy with, without wasting any time, I will let him know. About the first moves, well ok. I improved. C'mon, I've been with him for 1 and a half years, of cos I have improved! But I still think I am bad at letting him know how much I love him. I even feel the way I behaved right now, makes he feel unloved by me. Im sorry baby. I didnt mean to do that. I guess I still have so much to work on. I guess time will tell. But you know I love you right, babyku bushuk? Hahahahaha.  ******** On a totally different note, I feel like posting old pictures of me.  Nie zaman2 MOS. Hahaha. Can you believe it? That girl beside me used to be SO AFRAID to go clubbing?! Hahahahahhaa!!!!!!!!! I had to literally forced her to go clubbing with me. There was this time where me, Titi and her sat near Clarke Quay and had to wait for an hr? Just to let her decide her mind whether to go clubbing or not! Hahaha kekek or what!    Last but not least, presenting, DAYA MOHAWK! HAHAHAHAH!!!  My hairstylist did that for me and I tell you, the mohawk was freaking high and big!!! And I dont know what the hell I was thinking when I step out of the salon with this kinda hair!! Hahaha crazy shit. Oh how I miss my blonde hair. |
    
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