Tuesday, January 20, 2009
    Saturday was definitely bittersweet. I just wanted to spend time with him, only him, but things always don't turn out the way i want. Hmpf. Quite pissed off actually. I mean, who wont right? You didnt get to meet your bf the whole week cos he's in camp. And then weekend you thought you can have atleast one day to have him all by yourself but in the end, you have to share it with someone else. But nvm. We still got our own time at the end of the night. Met my friends halfway. Its been a long time we hangout, just the 3 of us. Im missing out alot i guess. Korang 2 da blondie, jealous!!!!! Nvm. Been there dont that. Hahaha. But anyway, we argued, again on that night. As much as i hate to admit it, im all to blame for it. And for all the days we fought. But this time, its different. We didnt have any screaming match or helmets flying around, but it was all talk. But he used 'fuck you and fuck' alot. We had a talk,again but mostly he was the one doing the talking. And I as per normal, teared. Cos i felt sad, sad, sad. Alot of things to be sad about. First, the things he said, second, i felt like a very bad gf, third, i took him for granted and the list goes on. I honestly feel that he deserve a better girl then me. But i guess, he loves me alot to have to put up with my sucky attitude all this while. And him being sweet as usual, wipe away my tears and gave me a hug. I love you baby. I know i've said it alot of times about me trying to change. But this time, im really really gona try my damn best to change. Its not doing us good. Someone slap me? Plus, its our 18th tomorrow. And its still not to late to make a new resolution right? Ps: Md Faizrul, thanks for loving me despite me being a pain sometimes. Your the best for me. I promise you, i will try my best to change. After that, we can live happily ever after. Haha. Im going for the interview for my traineeship tomorrow. Gosh. Wish me the best people. I hope i wont screw it up. This is my only chance!!!! God, help me. What should i wear eh?? And i miss my baby already. I feel like hugging him. *sad face* |
    
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