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Saturday, January 3, 2009
I think i have lost my desire to blog. Everytime i feel like blogging, i feel oh so malas to even type. And im blogging not because i want to. Its like i've been forced to blog. Padahal tkde orang force aku. Haha. Maybe cos i have a lousy comp that cant uploads pictures? Thus the mood is not there. This blog look so lifeless and empty without those colourful and editted pics of mine. Ergh! I was with the boyfriend, just the two of us the whole night on countdown. Both of our hps pratically wasnt working, which i dont know why. So we couldnt contact anyone. End up we just had one another the whole night. We went back home quite early that day. Infact, damn early it doesnt even feel like New Year. The moment i reached home, i felt suckier then ever. But thank goodness, the feelings fade when i woke up. *** Im not sure to be angry or pissed or what. Im not sure what to feel. I feel like i have curfews but not from my own parents! And it makes me feel like a little kid whom have no control over her life and whom need to be home at a certain time. And i seriously dont like it. Im turning 21 this year. Not 12. And him turning 22. 22 is already a young adult siaaaaa. Its already time to grow up for goodness sake. Do you really need someone to tell you what to do? Or what not to do? Take charge of your own life. If you know you didnt do anything wrong, then why be afraid of what people have to say? Think about that. I dont wana feel suffocated because of this. I still wana have fun, y'know. *** I wanted to say my New Year started with a bang but sadly, i cant. Bf met me at my block and he didnt use his bike instead he rode his dad's bike and i guess luck wasnt on our side or maybe god wanted to test us. It broke down just minutes after i sat on it. And things just got worst when he wanted to 'repair' it. I thought we could have a decent hangout near my place. Just be happy but the opp happened. I felt so unfair with the way he treats me but at the end of the night, things was ok. And i hope, he listens to what i said when we were talking things out. Plz, i had enough of fights. Dont make the new year worst then ever. I just wana be happy. *** I am gona look for jobs this monday. I HAVE to. |
    
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